A Scripta

00:11 StarWyng: I come to..
00:26 Red Pulsarion: (gently) It's dangerous, sweetie.
00:51 StarWyng: I know... I care
01:01 StarWyng: we go
01:11 Red Pulsarion: (nods)
01:20 StarWyng: base?
01:22 Masonry Redux: As you wish, Starwing.
06:11 Masonry Redux: Good evening.
06:18 StarWyng: hi
06:23 Red Pulsarion puts his hands in his pockets and nods.
06:34 Masonry Redux smiles and nods to Star.
06:45 Masonry Redux: All right.
06:46 StarWyng nods but watches alertly
06:59 Red Pulsarion: Thanks kindly.
07:22 Masonry Redux: Hey, Red. Hey... Star.
07:28 Masonry Redux: Don't kill me.
07:36 StarWyng tenses
07:44 Red Pulsarion: Nathan, nobody--NOBODY--is gonna kill you. Relax.
08:15 Masonry Redux: Jack wants me dead, an' I don't blame him...he can't control me, he says.
08:30 Masonry Redux: He's right.
08:41 Red Pulsarion: Good. You're not his slave.
08:50 Masonry Redux: Hell no.
09:00 Red Pulsarion nods.
09:05 Red Pulsarion: BUT.
09:13 Masonry Redux looks down.
09:24 Red Pulsarion: What're you thinking, Mase. For cryin' out loud.
09:44 Masonry Redux: Two things.
10:00 Masonry Redux: E's weakness is his kid.
10:08 Red Pulsarion: Stop right there.
10:11 Masonry Redux: He cares too much for her so all his en--
10:22 Red Pulsarion: His weakness?
10:32 StarWyng growls
10:38 Red Pulsarion: Christ, Mase, it's his KID.
10:52 Red Pulsarion: Of course he cares about her.
11:03 StarWyng: Red, what going on?
11:10 Masonry Redux: It's *not* his kid, even though he raised her, he keeps saying it's his kid, it's not his kid by blood.
11:48 Red Pulsarion: Who cares if he was the sperm donor? (shrugs) That's not what matters.
11:57 Masonry Redux: It's Styrm's kid. His ex-boss.
12:03 Red Pulsarion looks at Wyng and shakes his head slightly.
12:04 StarWyng: child matter...
12:20 Red Pulsarion: This is the ex-boss what's trying to kill him?
12:26 Masonry Redux: Yeah.
12:35 Masonry Redux: He wants the kid.
12:45 Red Pulsarion: Mn. I bet he does.
12:47 Masonry Redux: If I give him the kid, he'd leave us alone.
13:14 Red Pulsarion: There's no "us" left if you give him the kid, don't you see it?
13:16 StarWyng shifts to watch both men
13:47 Masonry Redux: Sure there would.
13:52 Red Pulsarion: You think he'd have ANYTHING to do with you if you gave up his DAUGHTER? You're smarter 'n that.
14:07 Masonry Redux: All I have to do is what he says. He'd leave me and Daisuke alone.
14:32 Masonry Redux: I don't care about E anymore. He refused me. He REFUSED my help.
14:44 Masonry Redux: He refused my comfort. Screw him.
14:47 StarWyng: Keen?
14:56 Masonry Redux looks up at Star.
14:59 Red Pulsarion rubs his temples.
15:24 Masonry Redux: Daisuke. Keen Frost. Yes, the same person.
15:56 StarWyng: you ummm bribe to keep Keen to self? With child!?
16:24 Red Pulsarion: Wyng, hold it. (gently) Everybody needs to stay calm here.
16:29 Masonry Redux: Well, I know that sounds stupid...
16:46 Red Pulsarion: Yeah, Nate. It sounds stupid. Why do you suppose that is?
17:05 Masonry Redux: but I want to be left alone. I want to help Daisuke find a cure for his radiation poisoning. And we can't do it watching our backs.
17:36 Masonry Redux: It's just a kid!
17:41 Masonry Redux: One. Kid.
17:57 Red Pulsarion: (sighs, rubbing his neck) No, it's more'n that, Mase.
18:02 StarWyng: child is future, you not know what grow to
18:14 StarWyng: people most important
18:19 Red Pulsarion: It's YOU, too. It's what it would say about YOU.
18:34 Masonry Redux: I don't care about a kid, I care about what I see here and now, what's in front of me, the person who I see is sick and hurting and in pain - and here's this kid...
18:58 Red Pulsarion: (eyes narrow) You're a better person than this. You tell Keen about this swell plan o' yours?
18:59 Masonry Redux: So it shows that I'm a cold heartless bastard when it comes to kids.
19:08 Masonry Redux: I did.
19:14 Masonry Redux: He didn't much care for it.
19:22 Red Pulsarion: Really.
19:40 Masonry Redux: Now, listen. Now that three quarters of the world thinks it's a bad idea, I won't do it, okay?
19:46 Masonry Redux: Hello, Kit.
19:50 StarWyng: We... us... we TAKE risk, our choice if we die, we die trying to live....ummm preserve life...
19:51 EquiIibria: Jack
19:56 StarWyng: not jack
19:57 Masonry Redux: No.
19:59 Red Pulsarion: Nathan, Kit.
((backs into the wall))
20:08 Red Pulsarion: Relax.
20:28 Masonry Redux: Fine. No kid to Styrm. I get it.
20:41 EquiIibria: What the hell are you doing here?
21:10 Masonry Redux: Red asked for me. Jack's got a hand on my neck in case I screw up, don't worry.
21:19 EquiIibria: Right.
21:29 EquiIibria reaches for the quantum gun on her belt
21:37 Red Pulsarion glances back. "Kit, none of that."
21:42 Masonry Redux glances at the gun.
21:46 Red Pulsarion: I won't stand for it.
21:58 Masonry Redux: That'll tickle me.
22:00 StarWyng: no.... he not tell all truth.... Lodestar not got full control
22:05 EquiIibria: Last time I checked, I outranked you, Red.
22:08 Masonry Redux rolls his eyes.
22:16 Masonry Redux at Star
22:18 EquiIibria: Nothing that comes out of his mouth is true.
22:21 Red Pulsarion: Last time I checked, I didn't care, Kit.
22:31 Red Pulsarion looks at Nathan grimly.
23:13 Red Pulsarion: You're a friend, Mase. And I gotta say, I'm a little disappointed with all the people who seem to have forgotten it.
23:30 Masonry Redux: No, Red. I betrayed everyone's trust.
23:32 EquiIibria: He's. Nobody's. Friend.
23:54 Masonry Redux: Though E and Fyre turned Kit against me...
23:54 Red Pulsarion: Mn-hm.
24:05 EquiIibria: I made up my own mind, Nate.
24:17 EquiIibria: E and Fyre? Not even a blip on my radar when it comes to you.
24:25 Masonry Redux: From what they told you. What they TOLD you.
24:32 Red Pulsarion: So explain something to me, Mase. What's your goal, here?
24:40 EquiIibria: No, Nate. It was what based on what YOU told me.
24:58 Red Pulsarion: You're throwing your friends out the window, right 'n left, fighting with your Kheld...
25:08 Red Pulsarion: Where do you think this is gonna go?
25:20 Masonry Redux: I told you what you wanted to hear because I knew I couldn't stand against them. I never could...
25:23 Masonry Redux: Alone, Red.
25:41 Masonry Redux: I will then be alone.
25:57 Masonry Redux looks at the floor.
26:10 Red Pulsarion: (nods) Yeah. Sounds great.
26:19 EquiIibria: That doesn't make any sense. What I wanted to hear and what I heard were two entirely different things.
26:40 Red Pulsarion: Then what?
26:58 Masonry Redux: Because you made up your mind already. I had no proof to show you that I hadn't done or said those things - I did say those things - and I just said them to Red.
27:15 Masonry Redux: And I still believe them to this moment.
27:15 EquiIibria: But have it your way, Nate. Go ahead and lump me into the crowd of people who abandoned poor Nate. Poor Nate who just wants to be adored.
27:20 EquiIibria: And feared.
27:45 Masonry Redux nods to Kit.
27:48 Masonry Redux: She's right.
27:50 StarWyng whispers at Masonry, this true?
27:59 Masonry Redux: They're all right.
28:29 Red Pulsarion: Mase. (firmly) They're only right if you--YOU--choose to prove 'em right.
28:41 Masonry Redux: I've hurt them all intentionally because I'm an evil person, so there.
28:50 Masonry Redux: I've tried!
29:02 EquiIibria: I don't think you're evil, Nate. I think you're sad. Pitiful, even. But not evil.
29:08 Red Pulsarion: You're an evil person? (flatly) Bullshit.
29:22 EquiIibria: And dangerous.
29:27 Masonry Redux: I've done what anyone asks...
29:30 StarWyng: Hope's Fury would know
29:42 EquiIibria glares at Starwyng
29:42 Masonry Redux: Screw her, I don't want any more god damn aliens touching me!
30:03 Red Pulsarion: (nods)
30:15 StarWyng gives Equilibria a puzzled look
30:40 Masonry Redux: I've tried to help. But E and Fyre, say or do something that piss me off, and it all goes out the window.
30:49 Masonry Redux: Kit even tried. We hammered out an agreement.
30:57 Red Pulsarion: Mase, listen. We all try sometimes to be friendly and have it tossed back in our face.
30:59 Masonry Redux: And then I blew it the next night.
31:22 Masonry Redux: Well I'm sick and damn tired of it!
31:23 EquiIibria: And what about the rest of us who reached out to you? You're gonna punish the rest of us because of their arrogance?
31:48 Masonry Redux: All I wanted...all I wanted... was just them to say, "Great job, Nate. Thanks a bunch for your help."
31:48 Red Pulsarion: Happens to everyone. And if you can't work it out, you shrug your shoulders and say "screw 'em", and move on.
32:15 Masonry Redux: I should have a long time ago.
32:26 Masonry Redux: Jack even tried. They do the same thing to him.
32:30 EquiIibria: ::quietly:: So the rest of us don't deserve the loyalty you insist on giving to them.
32:33 Masonry Redux: And Fyre's gone...
32:38 EquiIibria: Shocking.
32:40 Masonry Redux: That's not true, Kit.
32:57 Masonry Redux: Kit, I would... I would have done anything for you. For you guys.
33:08 Masonry Redux: But this kid business...
33:40 Red Pulsarion: Yeah, that's not moving on.
34:02 Masonry Redux: I know, from seeing how they treat Jack, and seeing how they treat Star...
34:19 Masonry Redux: I should have walked away a long time ago.
34:22 StarWyng: that not matter how treat me!
34:26 Red Pulsarion: ... Yeah. Kinda like they just wanna be alone, right?
34:39 Masonry Redux: Yeah.
34:45 Red Pulsarion: Yeah. Sound familiar?
34:47 Masonry Redux: But I only stay for one person...
35:01 Masonry Redux: Well why the hell can't they just tell--
35:06 Masonry Redux: ... me.
35:17 Red Pulsarion waits quietly.
35:30 Masonry Redux: But why still call me? Why still ask me to come help them?
35:42 EquiIibria: They expect you to.
35:55 EquiIibria: As if you owed them something.
35:55 Red Pulsarion: Because they're nuts right now, just like you are.
36:11 Masonry Redux: So I do... what's the benefit of my going over there and pissing them off, pissing me off...
36:23 EquiIibria: ::quietly:: You owe them nothing.
36:33 Red Pulsarion: They're scared, and they're hurt, and they're mad. And that's not a good way to be if'n you're trying to make good decisions.
36:54 EquiIibria: They're selfish and arrogant.
37:01 StarWyng: e.vac give up.... fight to die, not fight to live
37:02 Red Pulsarion: And Kit's right. They've been jerking you around.
37:05 Masonry Redux: I thought I owed them... E tried to help me.
37:25 Red Pulsarion: You've tried.
37:28 EquiIibria: Red, they don't make these decisions because they're scared. They make them because they think they're right.
38:05 Masonry Redux: But Frosty... I can't leave Frosty... and you saw how he decided that night when Jack told E off.
38:19 EquiIibria: And you're right; who can stand up to them when they're this united front of pure arrogance and stubborness.
38:34 EquiIibria: Does Frosty want you around?
38:37 Red Pulsarion waits quietly.
39:03 Masonry Redux: Yes! He... we had a talk.. earlier. He wants me. Not Jack.
39:24 Masonry Redux blushes.
39:25 EquiIibria: And when you tire of him? Who's next?
39:39 EquiIibria: When the next person comes along and innocently devotes himself to you . . . then what of Frosty?
39:57 Masonry Redux: Frosty... may be dead by then.
40:07 EquiIibria: It doesn't matter! My point is that it's not enough for you!
40:15 StarWyng eyes widen in surprise
40:15 EquiIibria: It's never enough for you.
40:32 Masonry Redux bites his lip and looks at the floor.
40:35 Red Pulsarion: Kit.
40:37 StarWyng: keen, dying?
40:47 EquiIibria: A room full of people care about you . . .
40:52 EquiIibria: And you worry about the ones who hate you.
41:00 EquiIibria: You obsess about them.
41:06 Red Pulsarion: You made your point. (quietly) No point in twisting the knife.
41:13 EquiIibria: Because this ::gestures around:: isn't enough for you.
41:29 Masonry Redux is staring at a spot on the floor.
41:42 Red Pulsarion: Mase. (quietly)
41:54 Masonry Redux looks up at Red.
42:16 Red Pulsarion: What E and Fyre do, that's their business. Screw 'em. You tried, they threw it in your face.
42:35 Masonry Redux nods once.
42:38 Red Pulsarion: But WE aren't THEM.
42:53 Masonry Redux closes his eyes and looks away.
42:58 Masonry Redux: I know.
43:16 Red Pulsarion: You don't gotta toss all your friends away because a few of 'em are bein'-- (nods) OK, then why's bein' alone so important here.
43:28 Red Pulsarion doesn't sound particularly puzzled about it.
43:30 Masonry Redux: But maybe what Kit says is right...it's not enough...
43:33 EquiIibria lowers her head
43:51 Red Pulsarion: Well, son, I got bad news for you.
44:00 StarWyng: watches tensely
44:04 Masonry Redux: It'll never be enough.
44:04 Red Pulsarion: This is what there is.
44:25 EquiIibria shuts her eyes
44:29 Masonry Redux: I *want* it to be enough, Red.
44:45 Red Pulsarion: Uh-huh. But it's not. Why?
44:58 Masonry Redux: Frosty does enough. He... he...
45:14 Masonry Redux: ... :: quietly:: worships me.
45:29 Red Pulsarion: ... (eyes narrow)
45:40 EquiIibria chokes back a quiet sob
46:00 StarWyng shortens wings strokes and tenses
46:04 Red Pulsarion kneels next to Mase.
46:08 Masonry Redux: Do you know when I was a kid, I got the shit beat out of me daily?
46:21 Red Pulsarion: Nope, didn't know that.
46:56 Red Pulsarion: You know what they called that when I was a kid, Mase?
47:05 Red Pulsarion: "Good Parenting."
47:18 Masonry Redux: No, I got the shit beat out of me by the kids at school.
47:42 Masonry Redux: Same group of kids. I remembered their names. And then I got big like this, I took an injection...
47:49 Masonry Redux: And I found them. And I killed them.
48:04 Red Pulsarion: And--that made it better, clearly.
48:14 Masonry Redux: For a little while.
48:30 Red Pulsarion: (nods)
48:42 Masonry Redux: Then a couple of people started giving me complements, saying I was really good at my job, and it all went right to my head.
49:01 Masonry Redux: Because I never had those kinds of complements when I was a kid, you know?
49:14 Masonry Redux: And I expected it. Demanded it.
49:38 Masonry Redux: All because I'm still a 15 year old looking for adoration.
50:11 Masonry Redux: And you, too, can find this out after six months of intense psychotherapy.
50:29 Red Pulsarion: Mase. (sighs) Look, I'm lousy at this. Lousy. So listen to the idea, not the words, a'right?
50:36 Masonry Redux nods.
50:52 Red Pulsarion: You're NOT 15.
51:14 Masonry Redux: I'm 42 - but deep in here...
51:20 Masonry Redux points to his chest.
51:37 Red Pulsarion: You're an adult. And you're damn insecure. And you know it.
51:38 Masonry Redux: I'm the moment I made the list.
52:30 StarWyng: relaxes slightly
52:32 Red Pulsarion: You know why I don't need anybody to worship me, Mase?
52:47 Masonry Redux: Because you're not insecure?
53:04 Red Pulsarion: Because I'm not God. And I'm OK with that.
53:21 Masonry Redux: Buh...
53:29 Masonry Redux looks down.
53:32 Masonry Redux: Yeah.
53:33 Red Pulsarion: If you're not OK with not bein' God, you got a problem, son.
53:39 StarWyng: hi
54:08 Masonry Redux: I'm not God, I don't want to control everything, I just...
54:23 Red Pulsarion: No, you just want the respect that comes with it, right?
54:23 Masonry Redux: I just, just what I know. What I can do...
54:45 StarWyng: :watches Masonry
54:55 Red Pulsarion stands up slowly and offers his hand to Nathan.
55:15 Masonry Redux lets him pull him up.
55:31 StarWyng tenses
55:33 Red Pulsarion: Well, you're never gonna get it that good. Not from anyone. But if you want something along them lines, that's fine.
55:39 Red Pulsarion: EARN IT.
55:51 Masonry Redux rocks at the words.
56:01 Red Pulsarion: If you want respect, be worth respectin'.
56:16 Masonry Redux crossarms.
56:40 Masonry Redux: I can't anymore...
56:43 Masonry Redux glances at Kit.
56:50 Masonry Redux: I've ruined too much.
56:59 Masonry Redux: Jack can't fix it.
57:07 Red Pulsarion: Mase, I seen a lot of people struggle with their inner demons. A lot.
57:14 EquiIibria wipes tears from her face angrily.
57:20 Red Pulsarion: You know when it all goes south?
57:33 Masonry Redux: When they give up?
57:39 Red Pulsarion: "I've gone too far to turn back now."
58:03 Red Pulsarion: It is NEVER too late to do the RIGHT DAMN THING.
58:12 Masonry Redux glances at Kit.
58:33 EquiIibria looks away
58:38 Red Pulsarion: Any time you wanna jump in here, Cap'n, you go--
58:55 Red Pulsarion: (exasperated) For christ's sake, Kit.
59:27 StarWyng: Lodestar know you, I believe in him...
59:27 Masonry Redux: Red, I can apologize now, but I'll say or do something stupid tomorrow.
59:53 Masonry Redux: And Jack said stuff...
06-24-2007 01:00:02 Red Pulsarion: Sure. I got news for you. I do stupid things all the time. And you leave Jack to me.
06-24-2007 01:00:03 Masonry Redux: Not being mean or anything.
06-24-2007 01:00:15 Masonry Redux turns to Red.
06-24-2007 01:00:24 Masonry Redux: ::quietly:: Don't hurt him.
06-24-2007 01:00:37 Red Pulsarion: 'course I'm not gonna hurt him.
06-24-2007 01:00:51 StarWyng: he not touch Lodestar
06-24-2007 01:00:53 Red Pulsarion: But you're not his puppet, and he needs to learn it.
06-24-2007 01:00:57 [Arena] No Juice For You: Wendys -Fresh never frozen beef.. o.o Does that mean they keep the raw beef in boxes outside in the back? lol
06-24-2007 01:01:22 Masonry Redux: He's only trying to help... because I was so angry... and I can still be...
06-24-2007 01:01:24 [Help] Pulse.: if i put docotred wounds healing/end/rech into aidself would which SO would it be better to replace..interrupt, heal, or rehc?
06-24-2007 01:01:56 Red Pulsarion: (nods) Yep. Better avoid the things you know are gonna set you off, Mase. I bet you can name both of 'em.
06-24-2007 01:02:27 Masonry Redux closes his eyes.
06-24-2007 01:02:33 Masonry Redux: Yeah.
06-24-2007 01:02:52 Red Pulsarion: So let's try a little role-playing. Imagine I'm Fyre.
06-24-2007 01:03:11 Masonry Redux: Your hair's too short. :: smiles a little::
06-24-2007 01:03:26 Red Pulsarion: Yeah, my chest isn't right either. (smirks) Pay attention.
06-24-2007 01:03:37 Masonry Redux: Okay, okay.
06-24-2007 01:03:51 Red Pulsarion: "Hey, Mase, come help us out. Come on, pal, chop-chop."
06-24-2007 01:04:18 Masonry Redux: "Okay. I'll be right there." but that's wrong, huh.
06-24-2007 01:04:27 Red Pulsarion: Yeah, let's try that again.
06-24-2007 01:04:36 Red Pulsarion: Starts with an N...
06-24-2007 01:04:42 Red Pulsarion: two letters...
06-24-2007 01:04:42 Masonry Redux: "I can't right now..."
06-24-2007 01:04:57 Masonry Redux: "No--"
06-24-2007 01:05:03 Masonry Redux: But Frosty!
06-24-2007 01:05:14 Red Pulsarion nods.
06-24-2007 01:05:21 EquiIibria: Let me try, Red: "Mason, it's E. Meet me in Steel."
06-24-2007 01:05:23 Masonry Redux: He's the *only* reason I go. I don't want to make him choose.
06-24-2007 01:05:54 Masonry Redux: "Ohka--um. I can't right now?"
06-24-2007 01:05:59 EquiIibria: "Mason. Now."
06-24-2007 01:06:13 Red Pulsarion covers a smile at Mase's answer.
06-24-2007 01:06:13 Masonry Redux: Now wait just a cotton-pickin' minute.
06-24-2007 01:06:47 Masonry Redux: ::contemplative:: The son of a bitch actually did that once...
06-24-2007 01:07:00 EquiIibria: ::deadpans:: I'm shocked and amazed.
06-24-2007 01:07:10 Masonry Redux: And I went...
06-24-2007 01:07:22 Red Pulsarion: Listen, Mase, Keen--Daisuke--doesn't need to choose between you and them to not toss all of you into the deathmatch ring.
06-24-2007 01:07:37 Red Pulsarion: He must KNOW you don't get on.
06-24-2007 01:08:04 Masonry Redux sighs.
06-24-2007 01:08:14 Masonry Redux: He does.
06-24-2007 01:08:59 Red Pulsarion: Well, if he likes you as much as you say he does, then ask him--ASK him--not to put you in that place anymore, right?
06-24-2007 01:09:59 Masonry Redux: Red, this might sound stupid... but when we broke the team one night, when E and Fyre went one way and the rest of Futura went the other...
06-24-2007 01:10:25 Masonry Redux: Frosty said they ranted about me.
06-24-2007 01:10:43 Red Pulsarion: Ranted? Who--E and Fyre?
06-24-2007 01:10:53 Masonry Redux: They actually *do* want me around - yes, them.
06-24-2007 01:11:23 StarWyng: someone for bottom of pole
06-24-2007 01:11:36 Red Pulsarion: 'course they do. (shrugs) They snap, you come runnning. That sound right? (nods to Wyng)
06-24-2007 01:11:56 StarWyng: ....... ummm N'shta say private to generals
06-24-2007 01:11:57 Masonry Redux closes his eyes.
06-24-2007 01:12:01 Red Pulsarion: Sounds pretty good. I want one.
06-24-2007 01:12:26 Masonry Redux sighs.
06-24-2007 01:12:29 Red Pulsarion: Mase, listen. (quietly)
06-24-2007 01:12:41 Masonry Redux opens his eyes.
06-24-2007 01:12:48 Red Pulsarion: That's not them adoring you worshipfully. Just the opposite.
06-24-2007 01:13:16 Masonry Redux nods once.
06-24-2007 01:13:20 Red Pulsarion: But you got friends. A lot of 'em. Who like you, and who respect you.
06-24-2007 01:13:37 Red Pulsarion: EVEN when you're bein' a pain in the tuckus, like now.
06-24-2007 01:13:59 Red Pulsarion smiles slightly.
06-24-2007 01:14:00 Masonry Redux smiles while he looks at the floor.
06-24-2007 01:14:20 Masonry Redux: E and Fyre aren't my friends.
06-24-2007 01:14:32 Masonry Redux looks pained as he says it.
06-24-2007 01:14:38 Red Pulsarion: Nope. (quietly) Damn shame, too.
06-24-2007 01:14:54 Masonry Redux: Kit...
06-24-2007 01:15:10 EquiIibria sighs
06-24-2007 01:15:24 Red Pulsarion looks at Kit meaningfully.
06-24-2007 01:15:27 Masonry Redux: Kit is. You all have been.
06-24-2007 01:15:52 Red Pulsarion: Ayep. She's been busting her ass trying to help you.
06-24-2007 01:16:19 Red Pulsarion: And that's a particular crime, because she's got a pretty cute one. Shame to bust it.
06-24-2007 01:16:27 Red Pulsarion coughs. "Not that I noticed."
06-24-2007 01:16:47 EquiIibria looks down
06-24-2007 01:16:59 Masonry Redux: ::blushes::
06-24-2007 01:17:41 Red Pulsarion: So if'n she's in a snit over you, might wanna think about whether she's got a right to be in one.
06-24-2007 01:17:55 Masonry Redux: I'm... I'm really sorry...
06-24-2007 01:18:04 Red Pulsarion: Don't tell me, son. Tell her.
06-24-2007 01:18:07 Masonry Redux: Kit.
06-24-2007 01:18:19 EquiIibria watches Masonry carefully
06-24-2007 01:18:25 Masonry Redux: Kit, I'm really sorry... I'm a coward.
06-24-2007 01:18:29 Red Pulsarion looks at Wyng and exhales slowly.
06-24-2007 01:19:08 Masonry Redux: I'm selfish. Arrogant.
06-24-2007 01:19:12 StarWyng carefully watches Red Pulsarion...
06-24-2007 01:19:21 EquiIibria opens her mouth but closes it quickly.
06-24-2007 01:19:30 Masonry Redux: And I've taken everything you've given me... and I threw it all away.
06-24-2007 01:19:43 EquiIibria: ::softly:: yeah
06-24-2007 01:20:11 Red Pulsarion: Wyng, what do you say we give these two a minute to talk.
06-24-2007 01:20:20 StarWyng returns to watching Masonry alertly
06-24-2007 01:20:28 Masonry Redux: I expected it and demanded it, and I shouldn't have.
06-24-2007 01:20:42 Masonry Redux: Please forgive me.
06-24-2007 01:20:54 Masonry Redux: Maybe not right now, but... someday.
06-24-2007 01:21:15 Masonry Redux: I don't want your adoration, Kit.
06-24-2007 01:21:37 Masonry Redux: :: whispers:: Only your friendship.
06-24-2007 01:21:50 EquiIibria: ::quietly:: It won't be enough.
06-24-2007 01:22:04 Masonry Redux closes his eyes.
06-24-2007 01:22:14 Masonry Redux: I'll have to accept that.
06-24-2007 01:22:15 EquiIibria wipes her eyes
06-24-2007 01:22:36 Red Pulsarion: Kit, if'n you're alright with it, we're gonna give you two some privacy to talk.
06-24-2007 01:22:56 EquiIibria nods at Red and Star
06-24-2007 01:23:12 Red Pulsarion: Won't be going far. (nods) Mase, at some point, Jack and me got some things to discuss.
06-24-2007 01:23:15 StarWyng looks directly at Kit
06-24-2007 01:23:19 Red Pulsarion nods.
06-24-2007 01:23:22 Masonry Redux: Okay...
06-24-2007 01:23:29 StarWyng: you want alone?
06-24-2007 01:23:38 Red Pulsarion: C'mon, Wyng.
06-24-2007 01:23:49 Masonry Redux: Star, for God's sake. I'm not going to hurt her.
06-24-2007 01:24:06 Masonry Redux: ::mutters:: I can't hurt her more than she has been.
06-24-2007 01:24:08 [Broadcast]Red Pulsarion: Wyng.
06-24-2007 01:24:09 EquiIibria: I'll be fine, Star
06-24-2007 01:24:14 StarWyng: okay
06-24-2007 01:24:33 EquiIibria puts the gun away with a sigh
06-24-2007 01:24:34 Masonry Redux: Damn, you can put that thing away.
06-24-2007 01:25:25 Masonry Redux: Kit...
06-24-2007 01:25:34 Masonry Redux: What more can I do? What more can I say?
06-24-2007 01:25:53 EquiIibria: I don't know, Nate.
06-24-2007 01:26:32 Khepri: Bzzzzt
06-24-2007 01:26:37 Masonry Redux: Daisuke has my tears. I have no more left...nothing but an emptiness.
06-24-2007 01:26:43 Masonry Redux: Is there a ...
06-24-2007 01:26:50 EquiIibria watches a bug fly by
06-24-2007 01:26:59 EquiIibria: Did you see that?
06-24-2007 01:27:09 Masonry Redux: Oh. No, no I didn't.
06-24-2007 01:27:17 EquiIibria: Weird.
06-24-2007 01:27:38 Masonry Redux: Maybe one of the new kids.
06-24-2007 01:27:46 EquiIibria: Or bugs.
06-24-2007 01:27:49 Masonry Redux: Got mutated into a bug or something...
06-24-2007 01:28:00 EquiIibria sighs heavily
06-24-2007 01:28:32 Masonry Redux: Kit, all I have are my actions.
06-24-2007 01:28:47 Masonry Redux: Since my words are not believable.
06-24-2007 01:29:05 EquiIibria: Your words hurt.
06-24-2007 01:29:22 Masonry Redux: They were honest.
06-24-2007 01:29:33 EquiIibria: Truth hurts.
06-24-2007 01:29:50 Masonry Redux: Even I didn't know I felt this way until you drew my attention to it!
06-24-2007 01:30:06 Masonry Redux: I've always done this...
06-24-2007 01:30:15 EquiIibria: Done what?
06-24-2007 01:30:42 Masonry Redux: Taken. Taken. Taken. Since I became a hero.
06-24-2007 01:30:59 Masonry Redux: Since the drugs, the pain consumed me.
06-24-2007 01:31:29 EquiIibria: You think I cared about you because of what you took from me?
06-24-2007 01:31:48 EquiIibria: I cared because of what you gave to me.
06-24-2007 01:31:57 Masonry Redux tilts his head.
06-24-2007 01:32:05 Masonry Redux: I did?
06-24-2007 01:32:11 EquiIibria: You were there when Emerald told me I shouldn't exist.
06-24-2007 01:32:40 Masonry Redux nods.
06-24-2007 01:32:58 EquiIibria: You were there after Thad got attacked. You told me that friends take care of each other.
06-24-2007 01:33:24 Masonry Redux 's eyes widen.
06-24-2007 01:33:42 Masonry Redux: Comfort. Comfort brings you joy.
06-24-2007 01:34:06 EquiIibria: You brought me comfort. The least I could do was give you the same.
06-24-2007 01:34:23 EquiIibria: And you threw it away!
06-24-2007 01:34:41 Masonry Redux looks down.
06-24-2007 01:34:49 EquiIibria shoves him with one hand
06-24-2007 01:34:51 Masonry Redux: :: whispers:: I did.
06-24-2007 01:34:55 EquiIibria: I cared about YOU.
06-24-2007 01:35:08 EquiIibria: ::quietly:: I believed in you. Loved you.
06-24-2007 01:35:20 Masonry Redux makes a wounded noise.
06-24-2007 01:35:47 Masonry Redux: My God, Kit...
06-24-2007 01:35:52 EquiIibria: And all you could do was turn around and look for E and Fyre.
06-24-2007 01:36:18 EquiIibria: Thad told you that he thought you were the one of the nicest people he knew. I agreed with him.
06-24-2007 01:36:57 Masonry Redux: But...
06-24-2007 01:37:01 EquiIibria: And it was just a bandage until the people you really wanted summoned you.
06-24-2007 01:37:47 Masonry Redux: Kit ... I thought... I thought they needed me...
06-24-2007 01:37:53 Masonry Redux: But so did you.
06-24-2007 01:37:58 EquiIibria: You WANTED them to need you.
06-24-2007 01:38:19 Masonry Redux nods imperceptively.
06-24-2007 01:38:45 EquiIibria: I thought they wanted help. And who else would they want it from but you?
06-24-2007 01:39:02 EquiIibria: They certainly weren't looking for help from any of us.
06-24-2007 01:39:29 Masonry Redux: But why not?
06-24-2007 01:39:43 Masonry Redux: I asked them all the time to have you guys come and help us.
06-24-2007 01:40:03 EquiIibria: It doesn't matter why. I'm not concerned about that any more.
06-24-2007 01:40:40 EquiIibria: But we weren't as easy to boss around.
06-24-2007 01:41:08 Masonry Redux shrugs a little.
06-24-2007 01:41:26 Masonry Redux: You frightened them, maybe.
06-24-2007 01:41:32 EquiIibria: Doesn't matter.
06-24-2007 01:41:44 Masonry Redux nods.
06-24-2007 01:41:53 Masonry Redux: No. It doesn't matter.
06-24-2007 01:42:05 Masonry Redux sighs.
06-24-2007 01:42:32 Masonry Redux: I liked working with them...until...
06-24-2007 01:42:54 Masonry Redux: Now I need to say, "No."
06-24-2007 01:43:02 Masonry Redux: And Jack does.
06-24-2007 01:43:11 Masonry Redux: This fence is broken beyond repair.
06-24-2007 01:44:48 EquiIibria: They called us fools and dupes for trusting you. Believing in you.
06-24-2007 01:45:03 EquiIibria: The only Nate I knew was the one who hadn't let me down.
06-24-2007 01:45:14 EquiIibria: I miss him.
06-24-2007 01:45:27 Masonry Redux: I abandoned them because part of me couldn't take what they did to me.
06-24-2007 01:45:33 Masonry Redux: What they did to Star.
06-24-2007 01:46:13 Masonry Redux: Yeah, she has some problems, but they didn't have to be mean.
06-24-2007 01:46:32 Masonry Redux: Fyre liked her; E... :: shakes his head::
06-24-2007 01:46:39 Masonry Redux: He's stubborn.
06-24-2007 01:46:41 EquiIibria: E doesn't like to be challenged.
06-24-2007 01:46:48 EquiIibria: Or disagreed with.
06-24-2007 01:46:50 EquiIibria: Or wrong.
06-24-2007 01:47:07 Masonry Redux nods.
06-24-2007 01:47:10 Masonry Redux: I see that now.
06-24-2007 01:47:44 EquiIibria: Fyre was more interested in making sure she got to me before you did. Thinking that I'm so mentally deficient that I can't make up my own mind about something.
06-24-2007 01:48:30 EquiIibria: She didn't want my help. And what Fyre wants, E wants.
06-24-2007 01:48:43 Masonry Redux: Oh, that's damn right!
06-24-2007 01:48:50 EquiIibria: So you know what? ::dusts hands:: This was me walking away from it.
06-24-2007 01:49:23 Masonry Redux: But I did mislead you - I did make myself look better...I didn't tell the whole truth.
06-24-2007 01:49:35 Masonry Redux: A lot of times I didn't realize I was doing it.
06-24-2007 01:49:50 EquiIibria: Nate. There was nothing you could have done to sugar coat what you did that night with Styrm.
06-24-2007 01:50:11 Masonry Redux: No. There isn't.
06-24-2007 01:50:26 Masonry Redux: I would have handed the kid over if I knew where she was.
06-24-2007 01:50:35 EquiIibria: I know.
06-24-2007 01:51:00 Masonry Redux: E would probably have keeled over dead, Fyre hated my guts for the rest of my life, and maybe Frosty too... and I would be a pariah.
06-24-2007 01:51:16 EquiIibria: And you're not one now?
06-24-2007 01:51:23 Masonry Redux snorts.
06-24-2007 01:51:31 Masonry Redux: Yeah. I am.
06-24-2007 01:52:32 Masonry Redux: And there's not much I can do about that.
06-24-2007 01:52:41 EquiIibria: I feel sorry for them. When they need help the most, they're going to have a hard time finding it.
06-24-2007 01:53:43 EquiIibria: But whatever, they get to walk away knowing they were right and the rest of us have to pick up the pieces.
06-24-2007 01:53:49 Masonry Redux winces.
06-24-2007 01:54:24 EquiIibria growls in frustration
06-24-2007 01:54:26 Masonry Redux: This hurts.
06-24-2007 01:54:35 Masonry Redux: You're right. You're right.
06-24-2007 01:54:54 EquiIibria: Does it? Does it hurt? Does it feel like you gave everything you had to someone and they just threw it away because it wasn't good enough?
06-24-2007 01:55:21 Masonry Redux looks her in the eye.
06-24-2007 01:55:24 Masonry Redux: Yes.
06-24-2007 01:55:36 Masonry Redux: I gave so much to E.
06-24-2007 01:55:43 Masonry Redux: Jack gave so much to him.
06-24-2007 01:55:57 Masonry Redux: And he asks Frost and Scarlette to escort him to Crimson.
06-24-2007 01:56:06 EquiIibria: Who the fuck is Scarlette?
06-24-2007 01:56:12 Masonry Redux: He asks Scarlette to bring him back to the hos--
06-24-2007 01:56:32 Masonry Redux: Fyre left. She asked Scarlette Blade, a friend of hers, to keep an eye on E.
06-24-2007 01:56:38 Masonry Redux: And to watch me.
06-24-2007 01:56:39 EquiIibria: Oh.
06-24-2007 01:56:58 Masonry Redux: No one knows where Fyre went.
06-24-2007 01:57:09 EquiIibria: Well, do E a favor then. Leave them! You think you're punishing him by staying? You're punishing yourself!
06-24-2007 01:57:38 Masonry Redux: Jack wanted to try and fix it, but he even realized that it's not working.
06-24-2007 01:57:45 EquiIibria: They don't want it fixed.
06-24-2007 01:57:48 Masonry Redux: But he won't abandon them.
06-24-2007 01:57:57 EquiIibria: They don't want his help.
06-24-2007 01:58:01 Masonry Redux: I know.
06-24-2007 01:58:10 Masonry Redux: They don't want mine, either.
06-24-2007 01:58:12 EquiIibria: You can't abandon something that doesn't want you around.
06-24-2007 01:58:38 Masonry Redux: Jack asked him point blank, and E said he wants me around because he doesn't trust me out here.
06-24-2007 01:58:47 Masonry Redux waves his hand about.
06-24-2007 01:58:58 Masonry Redux: He thinks I'm going to lay waste to this.
06-24-2007 01:59:01 EquiIibria: E wants you around to kick you.
06-24-2007 01:59:11 EquiIibria: He wants you around to punish you.
06-24-2007 01:59:29 Masonry Redux takes in a shuddering breath.
06-24-2007 01:59:29 EquiIibria: And we're here to watch you. But E thinks we're all fools, so he doesn't trust us.
06-24-2007 01:59:48 EquiIibria: He doesn't trust me.
00:01 Masonry Redux looks at the gun.
00:07 EquiIibria puts it away quickly.
00:18 EquiIibria: E is not my master.
00:23 EquiIibria: He is not yours.
00:40 Masonry Redux: He's like... the kids...
00:49 Masonry Redux: ... my God.
01:14 Masonry Redux: I'm so stupid.
01:19 EquiIibria: E knows how to manipulate. He worked for Styrm, didn't he?
01:27 Masonry Redux nods
02:23 Masonry Redux: :: angrily:: He's like the ones I killed.
02:31 Masonry Redux: He's just like them.
02:36 Masonry Redux: Him and Fyre.
02:39 EquiIibria 's eyes widen
02:48 EquiIibria: No! Nate! Don't you even think of it!
03:18 Masonry Redux: Oh. I want to..
03:30 EquiIibria: You're not a child anymore.
03:50 Masonry Redux: So I walk away?
03:53 EquiIibria: You can be better than them. Be stronger.

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